September 25, 2014
• isaiah. i am loving his new teacher. truly. i am guarded though. hoping this isn't the parent/teacher honeymoon phase. i bet it's not because, seriously, this teacher seems to be getting him.
• more isaiah. his developmental pediatrician, love her. the guidance she is giving us with medications and beyond is something we've been in desperate need of for years. the education she gives us for his medication and other developmental needs is priceless. she listens with concern and compassion. she is awesome with isaiah too. i am so hoping that our insurance - which the plans are changing for 2015 - will not financially impede us from continuing to use this fabulous doctor for isaiah. i fear that it will as the open enrollment info doesn't look promising. believe me, i will be calling that handy open enrollment information number which i've not ever done in the past; many questions to ask. and, i am thinking of ways to budget in this huge increase to our out of pocket expenses in order to keep isaiah under this doctor's care. health insurance is not improving, it's only get worse....the out of pocket expenses, the financial burden just continues to increase every year, and this year it is huge...for us.
• oh my, summer is gone. tough time letting go of this summer. it's been a great one: after i actually made the transition into summer.
• things learned through parenting isaiah. generally speaking, we as a society are quick to judge children and parents based on overt behavior. it saddens me because i've learned that these are snapshot moments. a snapshot doesn't give the full panoramic picture of life. compassion and listening goes a long way. educating: discussing and explaining are hugely important. i've learned - as a parent of a special needs child who deals with the medical and educational professionals - the importance of discussing and educating. i put these things (taking time to discuss and educate) into practice when i work far more than i use to. having a good friend or two or three but at least one is hugely important. networking is important too, but i am not so good at that one. big one....don't do this alone, parenting a special needs child...have another person with you, at least, to attend meetings and doctor appointments. if married, like i am, your spouse is incredibly important ...he/she needs to be involved in all areas; school, medical, life. without that involvement, it would be easy for a couple to separate because raising a special needs child has all kinds of stressors unique from neuro-typical children.
• fall time means new bible study sessions. so far, i am totally liking the "pharaoh" study. the cbs study on 1 corinthians is good, for some, but i am thinking it's not for me. robert and i have decided to study together the book of john; I am excited. dropping the cbs study will be tough because I can see benefits, but yeah, i need to drop it.
• well, it happened today. finally. actually, i am surprised it didn't happen sooner. i cried...sobbed, really. not because of sadness, but because of frustration over the situation. utter frustration. what drives me nuts about crying is how pathetic and weak i must look. frustration brings on tears....incredible frustration...almost a despair kind of frustration. thing is, after a bit, i realized that while it is okay to cry, it is not okay to do it of my own will and strength. i prayed. i turned to Him, and didn't really ask for anything but rather i just poured my frustrations out to Him.....comfort surrounded me. i am still very frustrated and feel tears well up, but i have hope.
• so, bike riding. i'm learning all sorts of things that are specific for female cyclists. things i'd rather not learn as it causes discomfort. i cannot figure out for the life of me why i am experiencing some of these female discomforts now...my riding hasn't changed. yes, i am riding more this summer than ever but it's no where near the amount for when these discomforts can occur according to most articles that discuss these issues. besides, i am not riding anymore now than i have over the last few months. while searching for some answers, i (really, it was robert) found a cool site and here is the helpful post, Female Anatomy and Saddle Discomfort , anyway...yeah...gotta figure this out. not gonna stop riding, no way.