Wednesday, November 18, 2015

It is time....


It is time.

It is time for me to close this blog.

But, I do gain from posting; the writing is therapeutic in many ways.

I enjoy sharing and discussing books; it fuels me. My photography has been a joy to me since my early teens - even though my skills lack. Music is air to my soul; I have discovered that songs are part of my life journal. Bicycles I once disliked, now they've become integral to my physical and mental health. I geek out over bikes, especially photos featuring cool compositions. My faith has been making quite the journey; I remain in love and in awe of the LORD.

This current blog of mine, here on blogger, is far too personal - I've not maintained enough privacy. I am closing this blog, but Polishing Mud Balls will not end - a new beginning will start over on Wordpress.

A new beginning on a blank page.

Starting now, this is what will happen...

• I will no longer post here on my blogger site.

• Polishing Mud Balls here on blogger will remain open until the end of December 2015 - this will hopefully allow as many people (who are interested) to be informed of this move.

• By end of December 2015, this blog will be set to private - this will enable my posts to remain intact for my own purposes, and maybe it will also allow me to move some book posts over to my Wordpress site.


Polishing Mud Balls, on Wordpress, is in its infancy. As time goes on, content will grow, and the blog will expand with pages and such. Be patient. I hope to be more intentional and purposeful so my posts will have phases when they will fly from my brain-to draft-to published. And other times of dry spells.

It's been fun here on blogger; eight years.

I am excited for my new journey and direction over on Wordpress.

If you are interested, you may follow me at my Wordpress site -

My first post on Wordpress - Hello!

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Sunday, November 8, 2015

Journal to Myself.....Sunday afternoon

November 8, 2015

Sunday after church consists of Bullet Journal planning for next week, reading a friend's blog post while drinking tea and eating cinnamon pumpkin/applesauce.

Bullet Journaling appealed to me, but I thought it may be a bit chaotic for me. I do not like to have my calendar, tasks, projects, and general writing stuff to be all intermixed. My mind is naturally bent towards compartmentalizing which at times is good and at other times it's not so good. But, it is my natural bent and fighting against it gets me nowhere. Bullet Journaling appeals to me because it is flexible and can maintain various items together in one journal. Yes, I need flexibility within my compartmentalizing nature. So, I decided to figure out a way to mesh my compartmentalizing bent along with the flexibility of this style of journaling; to make this work with my need for planning, list making, pouring out thoughts in writing along with order. So far, my bit of tweaking to the method is proving positive. Yet, I am not confident that bullet journaling will remain a positive solution for me, time will tell. So, I am giving this planning/journaling method a trial run for November, and December. If the trial run does prove that bullet journaling is for me, then I will set up a planner/journal for 2016. While this system does seem to be functional for me, it does have its limits. I cannot see myself using this system for my Bible thought processing needs, or for my longer journaling entries and miscellaneous thoughts. I hope to use a Midori Traveler's Notebook system for those needs.

My cinnamon pumpkin/applesauce creation is a new favorite. It's feeding my sugar craving via natural sources (no added sugar in this dish). Yes, I've gone to low sugar eating. The goal is to eat very little added sugar such as table sugar, processed foods, white breads/pasta, etc. A no added sugar diet would be my ultimate goal except I don't think it will be practical for the long run. Why am I trying switch my food lifestyle to one with low amounts of sugar? My health. I know that answer is used by many as a catch all kind of reason. But seriously, I've noticed my body react in a unfriendly way when I consume too much sugar. I think my health has necessitated this change.

Tea. It is finally tasting good with no sugar or cream. Strange that I am now finding it very palatable. Even so, it still will not be my main squeeze in the land of fluid intake, but it sure is nice to have a change up every now and then. No worries Mr Coffee-Espresso, you have not lost your position of preferred drink beyond water.

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Wednesday, October 28, 2015

What's On Your Nightstand? October 2015


What's On Your Nightand? - a monthly meme that takes place on the last Tuesday of every month and is hosted by 5 Minutes for Books. Clearly, this being Wednesday, I am a day late. And this month? -it has zoomed by with such force and speed that I can hardly believe this coming Saturday is Halloween.


• Reading. What reading? Seriously. I've pretty much done no reading, except for a few chapters here and there. I have done a lot of bookshelf browsing at the library, home and online. That has been fun.

• October books read. I was being serious; I have not completed one book this month. Not one listed on my October book list (featured in 2nd photo below). Well....I did polish off the last chapter of one book, but that one has been waiting to be completed since August. I don't count that book because there really was not much left for me to read.


• Last book read. A Grief Observed by C.S. Lewis. I started reading this book in August and finished in October. It is a C.S. Lewis book per C.S. Lewis' style which means it was deep, profound and intellectually provoking - all while diving into a realm with emotional honesty; a realm that no one wants to experience, grief. The grief Lewis describes is utterly true. His thoughts and emotions are raw and ones that far too many people can identify with. Lewis wrote these words as he was grieving the loss of his wife; he questions, he doubts, and feels rolling and conflicting emotions that many experience when suffering. The ugly monster of grief may be expressed differently and what one takes away from living through the suffering of grief may be different too, but the process is pretty much the same. There can be comfort gained knowing that within the process, you are not alone. I think A Grief Observed helps with that, helps a person not feel so alone. This book can be a healing tool, that is if one ever truly heals but even if they do not....the book can be a tool for helping another learn to cultivate and live a full life within their "new normal".


• Currently reading. 1984 by George Orwell. Yes! I've finally started this book, AND it is very much my cup of tea, BUT I am reading it sooooo slowly. Goodness. Reading and me and October has not mixed well. Well, anyway, the slow pace is affording me the ability to sink more into the story, and the further I sink the more I like the book AND the more my mind is getting all twisted up into the whole big brother thing...I do have a big brother thing even before starting this book. Soooo interesting, especially since it was copywriten in 1949. Furiously Happy by Jenny Lawson. Yes, this book gained my attention the moment my eyes spotted the cover; the book has kept my attention. So why have I not finished the book? I blame that on my life happenings during October. The lack of whizzing through this book in no way implies I have not liked what I've read so far. Once I finish, I do hope I can still proclaim an affinity towards the book (author)...I'm 99.5% certain that I will.

• Read aloud with Grace. The Lightning Thief - Percy Jackson by Rick Riordan. It's official. She has lost interest, we will not complete this book. I am a bit concerned about the track record Grace and I are having with books we read - we DNF far more books than ones we complete. Hmmmm. Well, I would rather she say she is not liking the story and go onto another one than use our precious reading time together sludging through a book. Still. I hope I am not cultivating a DNF reader.


• Books on deck. Jackaby by William Ritter. This is a bookclub book, and one that I am excited to read. I think I will like this one, it has many elements that attract me. Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy, I have not started reading this book, and I really want to. Sooooo....I am going to start this month. Good news, my 16-year old daughter has also not started the book - this is good, since I plan to read it along her, at the same time but not at the same pace so that we can discuss the story.

If I get through more books than 1984, Jackaby, Furiously Happy, Anna Karenina then November will make up for October. Shoot, November will outshine October even if I accomplish one of my reading goals. (ps...I do not plan on reading Anna Karenina in one month, I think this one will take 2-3 months.)

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Saturday, October 24, 2015

To be or not to be....

I give you a quote, as I ponder the state of my blog; to be or not to be?, streamline it for one specific purpose?, or leave it as it is - an eclectic gathering of thoughts, photos, books, music, faith?

I came across the quote as I was browsing this vast online world that we live in. The quote spoke to me; I find truth in these words, and as more days pile up in the life I am experiencing, the more I believe in love....such as described in the quote. (I have not read the book where the quote resides, I plan to)

"Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. No, don't blush, I am telling you some truths. That is just being "in love", which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."

-Louis de Bernières | Captain Corelli's Mandolin

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Friday, October 23, 2015

Journal to Myself.....misery

October 23, 2015

"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked shall I return. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD." Job 1:21

Lately, I've been thinking about Job.

I once did not care much for the book of Job; it felt like sludge work to read through the chapters. But, during 2014, I came to like and appreciate Job. So much so, that I started to crave time to study this book. I've not yet studied it.

Over the last couple weeks, my mind keeps going to Job. This man went through a period of great suffering; he was attacked by Satan, he lost a great deal - his family, his wealth, and his health. He was reduced to man who had almost nothing left in this world. His health deteriorated to such a degree that others hardly recognized him.

He suffered greatly. Yet, he remained faithful to God throughout each and every moment of his trial. He remained faithful even when he was feeling at his worst; feeling like he would rather die than carry on...he cursed his day of birth but he did not curse God, not even once.

"I have not departed from the commands of his lips; I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread." Job 23:12

I have been struggling emotionally - over this last year, spiritually - since September, and now physically.

I live daily with a low rumbling feeling of being on edge. Sometimes, that rumbling turns into a roar; the volume cranks up and I feel out of sorts. It's anxiety. I know it. It's there every single day no matter my lifestyle. I spoke to my doctor about it this past July; I was hoping there was a physical answer like my blood work was out of whack or something. But nope, lab values were all normal. It sucks, this consent undertone of anxiety, but I've learned to deal with it; it remains manageable. Lately, I have been filled with a feeling of anger - every day. Too often, others know I am angry. But more often than what I allow others to know, I keep the anger to myself; I retreat. Most of the time, the anger is not rational. I am not a fan of that emotion. Once, this last August, I got a glimpse into despair. A glimpse that went no where in its fleeting moment. It went no where because my hope in the LORD remained, but it was kind of scary - in retrospect - because what if I sunk into despair and it did not lift...what if it went on and on, and what if I did not have the LORD to turn to. Then what? Despair has not earned favor with me, fortunately that dark emotion and I rarely try to dance together. {I am not suggesting that if a person sinks into despair that their faith is weak; battling this mental yuck is far more complicated. For me, I realized that if I didn't have my faith and hope in the LORD then what would I have clung to? What would I have used to battle the lies that were loudly yelling inside of mind? - not being melodramatic even though it seems that way...well, during the moment, it was a bit melodramatic inside of my mind. Yuck.}

It seems that Job experienced despair, and he took his despair to God. He "did not depart from the commands of His lips"...I think Job's depth of faith and trust in the LORD gave him the strength to endure his suffering. I want his strength.

Over the last 2 weeks (maybe 3), I have been suffering from an ailment. I have gone to the doctor, and will be going again this coming Monday. I am not in the habit of going to the doctor for myself, for me to go...well...I am greatly troubled.

Last week, I thought the doctor had an answer. Turns out, she did not. But what is going on? I don't know. I do know that it's not anything dramatic or life threatening. Even so, my mind still jumps to all sorts of diseased ailments like Lupus which I don't have but keep going back to {stay off google, Deanna!!}; I feel diseased and gross. I want this ailment to go away and leave me alone. It is slowly driving me mad; I want to claw off my skin, especially when it is flaring up. I am medicating myself, daily and frequently. That says even more about how troubled I am; medications and me are not really friends, we stay as distant from each other as we can. But, over the last couple of weeks, I've been popping pills like mad, well, in a mad style of my own which is still conservative compared to others. Beyond popping pills, I am washing my hands obsessively, and applying ointments and creams to my skin especially when I feel like clawing it off. I am not sleeping well either; this whatever it is wakes me in the middle of the night, several times. I wake in the morning, only to live the misery all over again. I is getting better, then wham! -it flares up and the mad cycle starts again. I feel miserable, not all day long - thankfully.

But Job, his misery - his suffering - was far greater than mine. Far greater! Yet, he did not curse God, not even once. And, beyond not cursing God, he praised Him. Job praised God! Yes, he complained and questioned and got angry and expressed all of this to God, but he did not curse Him. He took his struggles to God instead of retreating from Him. Job came to an understanding that he (that we) do not always know what God is doing in our lives; it is beyond our human ability to understand the why of suffering. Suffering doesn't always make sense, it doesn't always seem to have reason.

"Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation? Tell me, if you understand." Job 38:4

What am I doing? I am no Job, that is for sure. I am not cursing God, but my mind is curling up into its ownself with complaints, moans, and great irritation especially in the midst of the miserable flare ups. It's hard to get my mind off my misery; distraction does not come easily. Sooo....I have been thinking about Job. Experiencing this ailment of mine is enlightening; my respect for Job is increasing ten-fold with each miserable day that I need to tread.

This week, I've been trying to be more like Job; like I said, I am no Job. It is difficult....I am cranky and tired. Even so, I am finding Job to be a great source of comfort, and encouragement; trying to focus more on seeking God, and giving Him praise. But, it's a struggle during the flare ups...I am feeling worn out.

Job did a much better job than what I have been able to muster up. I am thankful that I have not been called to suffer to the extent of Job's great suffering; I am not sure how I would good as Job? -unlikely. But, I do strongly believe that God has a purpose in our pain even if we cannot see it - whether it's emotional or physical.

I pray to have Job's depth of faith and trust in the LORD.

"The fear of the LORD - that is wisdom, and to shun evil is understanding." Job 28:8

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Friday, October 9, 2015

Journal to Myself.....this is great

October 9, 2015

This is great! Seriously!

I think I will do this. I mean, how fun.

I think we have potential to create a fabulously funny album. And an album that would put some perspective on things....or not.

Either way, this is a great idea! I see the genius in it.

"Whenever Victor and I are fighting, I like to pull out my phone and take a selfie of us together because that way when he tells me to calm down I can prove that I'm less mad than he is because 'How could you think I've lost my temper? Look at me in this picture. I look adorable. You look like the one with the temper problem?' It's also nice because when I'm taking the picture he either has to smile or he has to choose to look shitty. Either way, I win. Plus, I have a terrible picture of him I can threaten to tweet out if he doesn't agree that I'm probably right about everything." -Furiously Happy | Jenny Lawson, page 16

Of course, if Robert pulls this on me...well...he wouldn't.

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Book List.....ambitious october


My October to-be-read list is ambitious, I recognize this. It may be a bit too ambitious considering that we are already nine days into the month, and I have yet to complete one book. Plus, I have about three more books on my list than what is seen in the photo. But hey! - if I don't read all the books on my ambitious October list, I at least had fun planning and dreaming.

Glamorous Powers | Susan Howatch - ebook

The Life You Never Expected | Andrew Wilson, Rachel Wilson

The Confessions of St. Augustine - ebook, two copies because I couldn't decide on translation - Modern English, and Oxford World's classics - I plan to slowly work my way through this book.

1984 | George Orwell - about time I read this book.

The Complete Poetry of Edgar Allan Poe - a read aloud with my 18 and 16 year old daughters.

The Turn of the Screw | Henry James - a read aloud with my 18 and 16 year old daughters.

The Lightning Thief | Rick Riordan - a read aloud with my 9 year old daughter. I am starting to have my doubts that we will finish this book. Her interest is waning.

Wuthering Heights | Emily Bronte - I have started this book, not sure I'll finish it. So far, the story is not grabbing me, but I will give the book the entire month of October before I call it quits.

Anna Karenina | Leo Tolstoy - I plan to start this one soon. I expect this book will take me 2-3 months to complete.

The Invasion of the Tearling | Erika Johansen - I loved the first book, so I am looking forward to this one. But, I have second book jitters. This is classic for me - the first book and I got along so well that it is making me concerned that the second book will disappoint...the book jitters.

Furiously Happy | Jenny Lawson - well, if you've ready any of my recent blog posts, or IG posts then you'll know that I have started this book AND that the book and I have bonded.

Jackaby | William Ritter - I am excited to read this book. It sounds like a story up my alley. I just received this book last night, it's a bookclub book. I wish I had it at the time I took the photo, the cover attracts me.

What books would you like to read during October?

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Wednesday, October 7, 2015

This book!


This book! -the cover was what first grabbed my attention and then I received the book....I think I've fallen in love. A bit dramatic? Yes. BUT, it gets better! The cover doesn't end, it continues inside the book, on the page right before the half title page.! Love it. It made me smile even more.

As I was making my way to the table of contents, I happened upon the "Advance Praise" page. I don't normally read this page - you know, the page that features blurbs of praise from some seemingly-influential-on-some-level kind of folk. Well, as I was opening the book, for some reason, I stopped on this page. I don't know why. Maybe it was because my eyes hit the first blurb quote from Charles Dickens and my brain became puzzled - Charles Dickens wrote a blurb? He's dead, right? Right. Well anyway, in that mild haze of confusion, I quickly realized what was going on and let me tell you - as if I did not already love the cover enough, now I have the Advanced Praise page increasing my desire to read the contents of this book. I am not kidding! This page alone has started to endear the author to me...well, her writing.


Then! Seriously...there is a then! Then, I read, right after the table of contents, which by way contains some great chapter titles...anyway, right after the TOC, I read a page - I don't know what to call this page, maybe a side note of sorts??? Regardless of what to call this page, read it! I am glad I did. After reading that page, it was confirmed that the author and I are going to get along quite nicely, we are going to be friends - well, friends in the sense that she will write books and I will read her books! Pretty cool friendship, if I say so myself. And yes, I declared a friendship with Jenny Lawson before reading further into her book. Why? Because! Because while reading the words she wrote, there was instant feeling of bonding...a writer/reader kind of bond. You know, where the reader connects with the writing; the words, the style.

No worries, I will not stalk her beyond seeing if she will be on a book tour, and then trying to see if I can be in attendance at one of her stops...that's a healthy kind of stalking, provided I don't show up at every tour stop - once is enough.


Anyway, the point here really is that I immediately connected with Lawson's writing style. She possess some serious and fantastic wit - I love when that skill is fabulously woven into the person's writing. Besides that, even if I cannot keep up with the wit (especially the spoken word sort) - because at times, I cannot - I think witty people are fascinating even when serious. This artful skill attracts me.


But wait!

After the cover, TOC, and the side note thing - it got serious. The disclaimer page and Note from the Author took a serious tone, but even in the seriousness...she speaks to me, my eyes read the words so that my ears can hear. I hear her. Even among the seriousness - because of the seriousness and they way she writes - I proclaim that the author and I will get along quite well, we will be friends even though she does use profanity...I'm not one to get too bothered by profanity especially if it's not coming out of my mouth or my kids' mouths. (And yes, profanity comes out of my mouth far too much...seriously trying to work on that) Besides, I get her profanity, because honestly, I am familiar with the subject at hand, albeit, not to the same depth as the author (thankfully). But enough to understand the intensity and anger felt towards depression..and anxiety, for that matter. Depression does indeed lie, and it's wicked lies. And well, anxiety is like a "long-term abusive boyfriend".


Anyone who can speak of depression when others cannot, AND speak of it well with authenticity and transparency - bringing light to a serious topic that needs to be spoken of and not in a dry way - well, I respect their ability. As you can see, I have high hopes for Furiously Happy, but even if the book doesn't deliver completely, I am willing to bet that it will deliver on some level. I mean, the writing style is already highly agreeable to my reading eyes and inquisitive mind. How could it not be? - with a line like this... "...frustrated tears by baffled editors who have no choice to accept my belief that it's perfectly acceptable to make up something if you need a word that doesn't already exist, and that punctuation is really more of a suggestion than a law. It's called 'concoctulary' y'all." Ummm...yeah, her writing is very agreeable to me.

When I close the book, after the last sentence has been read, I will - eventually - let you know if our friendship has grown or became stagnant. I am betting that the friendship will remain intact with growth along the, at least some growth on my part.

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Monday, October 5, 2015

My Bible and Me.....hiding his word


I have been trying, for a long while, to memorize scripture. I suck at it, simple truth. But do I really suck at it? Or is that a handy excuse?

I follow Do Not Depart, in part, because of their focus on Scripture memorization. I join in on their memorization sessions, sometimes on a formal level but most often on a informal level; currently they are memorizing Isaiah 12. I join in for motivation, but mostly for structure. I crave structure. When I don't have structure, I am less likely to stick with the activity or project (the structure doesn't haven't to be detailed).

I decided to memorize Isaiah 12.

I am not doing too well.

It seems that I cannot get the knack for memorizing. It's frustrating.

Even so, I keep trying.

Do Not Depart is hosting a linkup; I decided to participate even though Isaiah 12 is not sticking, at least not yet.

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Favorite Bible verse: I do not exactly have a favorite but I do have several verses that I have frequently gone back to over the course of this year.

Psalm 130:5
"I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope."

Psalm 33:20
"We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield."

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Romans 8:18
"I consider that our present suffering are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."

Romans 8:28
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

2 Corinthians 4:17-18
"For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

Psalm 118:24
"This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it."

Philippians 4:8-9
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy- think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me - put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."

Galatians 6:7-10
"Do not be deceived; God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he does. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers."

Romans 12:12
"Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."


Memorization as a child: I do not recall memorizing scripture as a child. It was not part of my life, and it's not part of my routine even now.

Bible Versions: I use two versions, ESV and NIV. I love my NIV Life Application Study Bible, I use this one to read and study. I have two ESV Bibles, The Inductive Study Bible and the Reformation Bible. I love the Reformation Bible and use it right along side my NIV Bible. The Inductive Bible is the one I use during church, and when I am reading through a passage or chapter for the first time for a study.

When I am attempting to memorize, I read the chapter in both translations to decide which one I prefer for that particular memorization attempt. I waffle. I see great value with reading the ESV; often, it's word choices are richer than the NIV. But, the NIV, many times, reads smoother.


Memorizing tools: well, now, here is one problem...I am unable to commit to one tool. I am making this entire memorization process a lot harder than it needs to be.

With that said...

• Index cards are my inclined way to to memorize - write the verse on the card, read the card in the morning and evening and throughout the day, post a card or two around the house, carry the card(s) in my purse for access when I am out and about.

• Scripture Typer is very cool and appeals to me; it aides in a way that index cards cannot with its quizzing features. Soooo....maybe both tools would be the way to go for me.

When I am able to get far enough into memorizing a passage, the 1st letters technique is beyond useful. I love that tool.

• Studying the Scriptures; as I write this post, it has been impressed upon me that memorization comes more naturally for me if I am studying the text instead of isolating a verse or passage to be put into my memory cells. I need to become more purposeful about memorizing because even with familiarity gained through studying, I cannot repeat the verse/passage verbatim. I can, however, say a verse well enough to get the point across, and I can do a fairly decent job with remembering the reference or a close approximation. Overall, studying God's Word is what makes verses and passages stick in my mind far more than any other tool.

Why is memorization difficult for me? Laziness. It is not an established part of my routine, I forget to memorize. Yep. I forget. That's what it boils down to.

Plus, I cannot settle on a chapter or passage that I want to commit to memory. I want it to be meaningful, and have a personal impact. As I am putting this thought into typed words, it strikes me that this reason is quite pathetic and silly. I have been looking at this memorizing gig all wrong. First off, all of God's Word is meaningful and has purpose. It will make an impact. I need to stop over thinking this one, and just stop forgetting to memorize and start doing it.

And I need to stop deceiving myself about memorizing being difficult. I need to stop being overwhelmed. I need to remember, while studying Scripture, to choose a chapter or passage or verse within the study premise, and then memorize it.

Benefits: Goodness. There are a ton of benefits for memorizing Scripture. I recognize this which is why I keep attempting.

• There is nothing like God's Word coming to mind during tough situations or even those times filled with ease. Having Scripture come to mind in any given moment feeds a depth and richness into my relationship with the LORD that is indescribable. I know this even by the few passages and chapters that come to mind vaguely with little word-by-word recall. With increased familiarity and some memorization of the passage/chapter, the vagueness is becoming less and the richness and depth is increasing.

• I love to discuss God's Word, and have found myself realizing how beneficial it is to the discussion when a verse or passage is spoken word for word vs paraphrasing or giving a vague idea of the reference. My inability to recite a verse or passage has decreased my ability to discuss -- although, it doesn't stop me.


So, how do I stop forgetting? How do I make Scripture memorization a part of my daily routine? Just do it, is the answer. One step at a time, and stop overthinking. And, for Isaiah 12, I need to stop looking at the chapter in isolation and start digging into it for understanding and meaning.


As a way to keep memorization in the forefront of my mind - at least for October - I am reading the daily blog series over at Lisa Notes. Her series? Tools to Memorize a Bible Chapter which is part of the Write 31 Days challenge (a challenge I hope to do one year, but this topic is for a different post). So far, I am finding her posts helpful and encouraging; she is using Isaiah 12 as her sample chapter. I look forward to seeing how this month unfolds with the series.

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Sunday, October 4, 2015

Journal to Myself.....more change

October 4, 2015

This happened, yesterday.

More change in my life.

A needed change.

A preventive change.

The boy, he was thrilled.

He was an enthusiastic helper.

He was his uncle's shadow.

This change, it is good.

The house agrees.

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